Volume Pedal        		(cyber-collaboration w/ AMY YOUNG, NY,NY)


> "think of control as a volume pedal"
> he said this to me upon me
> questioning my own (relative) stupidity
> without phrasing it
> in the form of a question.
> "think of control as a volume pedal"
> he said this to me
> i tossed it around and turned as i twisted
> into my own manic delirium--
> i like my room best when it's scary
> i think it keeps me sane.
> irrational rationales in mid night
> get me higher than anything.
> high.  er than any thing.
> "think of control as a volume pedal"
> i have always believed to understand
> the simple art of adjustments				
							A.Y., Dec.,1998

the highs and the lows.. and the
just right mid ranges.. 
Like a chameleon in an arboretum
easily making the slight change
to fit the situation. Blend in..
"think of control as a volume pedal
now, here, in my room of shadows
with my manic mind throwing
fanatical fantasies into my
bed aching for freedom from my body.
thinking of control as a volume pedal
i lean with all my weight into it
and explode with decible orgasm.
hold it there and live...
Live like new years eve night
in the feedback control makes
when pushed to the edge.
slowly when i open my eyes,
and the piercing echoes into the shadows,
i laugh at the walls of my room
wondering if this one goes to eleven...


-/\- 9/28/99 Cypress,CA